Attitude Adjustment

I caught myself whining the other night to Tony about how overwhelming it can be taking care of our daughter, our house, him, our dog, working, and preparing "healthy" meals each night. I complained that I don't get any "spare time" with no one demanding anything of me. Well, I had a major reality check after watching a show about a paralyzed woman who just had twin boys. She never complained and she does all the things I do (minus work) but she has TWO babies! Who in the heck am I to complain about anything?! I would like to think that at this stage of my pregnancy it is my hormones going berserk. I know that my body is physically exhausted and there are some days when my mind is done too. I think that makes me have pity parties for myself and that is just no good at all! So, I'm giving myself an attitude adjustment and I am going to remember how extremely blessed I am to have so many gifts that I probably don't deserve like a sweet daughter (and another on the way!), a husband who loves me, a home to take care of, a family that is wonderful, and a job when so many don't have one. What more could I possibly want? I love every second I get to spend with Emmy and I'm happy just looking at her! Now I'm not saying that my "whines" won't come out every so often but my goal is to appreciate life (even when it's overwhelming). I think it still would be smart for me to designate a small snippet of time here and there especially for myself just to regain my balance but I'll figure all that out later!

On a different note, I'm thinking about my mom a lot lately because we will find out this week whether or not she needs to have more chemo (starting next week). I pray that she won't need it because I know that it was torture for her. It's been hard for me to let others take care of her when I feel perfectly capable. However, I don't want her to feel guilty for accepting my help being so pregnant. We both just want to help each other and that just isn't going to happen this time around. I know that mom is having a hard time not being able to offer me support during these last few weeks and there is even question as to whether or not she will be able to be at the hospital for baby girl's birth. That has to be so hard for her. I guess it's a lot like how I feel when I'm at work and one of my mom's friends is with her at a chemo appointment or just helping her around her house. That should be ME! I think no one wants to be helpless, especially when it comes to family.

On a closing note, we got Emerson's 2 year photos back and I will post one or two for now. We did the shoot way too close to bedtime so the smiley, happy pictures were few and far between but they still turned out pretty darn cute I think!